Producer, Writer, & Director

Yay, my home computer is miraculously working and getting online again... get excited!  This is big news! lol  My plan was to run 7 or 8 miles tonight, but during my workout, Danny told me I shouldn't do any more running till the half-marathon, so cheers to that! :)

So I came home and talked to Malori and watched the ending of Click instead.  It's surprisingly deep for an Adam Sandler movie.  There's a scene where he (Michael Newman) is a rich, old, unhealthy man in the hospital, divorced and distanced from his family, and he says, "This isn't the life I wanted!"  And the angel takes him to the screen that says "Produced, Written, and Directed by Michael Newman," and says, "Looks like it is."  That scene always hits me in this movie.

The message they're going for is that we all need to make good choices now and value our relationships because that's what matters most in the end.  True.  But in our own strength, we're just not capable of getting the major things right.  In my own life, whenever I hold onto control and essentially "write and direct" my life story, I end up making stupid, selfish decisions just as he did in the movie, little things that I think won't matter now, but that may have a huge effect on my future.  Only when I choose to hand the control over to the Lord, to let Him shape my decisions and show me what is truly important... will my destiny be fulfilled.  I'm surrendered to God for the most part, but there are certain stronghold areas that I'm not giving Him... and I'm fully aware that they are exactly the areas that could mess up my future.  I want to pass the remote to God and let Him deal with these attitudes now.  I want to lead a fulfilling, inspiring, selfless life full of deep relationships and a close walk with God.  

And most importantly, when I'm on my deathbed looking back, I want it to be obvious to those around me that my earthly life story was "Produced, Written, and Directed by God."