It always surprises me how quickly I can lose sight of what God said only hours ago, how my emotions can rush downhill, and how easy it is to believe all the bad things when I'm slightly open to it. Sometimes I'm sad for no defined reason and feel a sudden loss of hope. Sometimes trusting God and continuing to wait on Him is supremely difficult. Sometimes I get really confused about what I'm supposed to be doing, and whether anything I'm doing right now has any eternal significance... I feel small and alone and wonder if anyone really understands... I feel sickeningly bored and stuck in a rut, and desperately want something - anything - to suddenly change! Sometimes walking in love is exhausting and appallingly unappreciated. Sometimes the old me takes over, and the truth feels false and the lies feel true. Sometimes it's a major struggle to hear from God and be sure I'm in His will. ....and sometimes I get too self-focused, which never leads to anything good.
So I'm praying that things will become clearer, for peace and joy and wisdom. And I'm waiting and doing my best to stay faithful and trust God. And I know everything will seem better and brighter in the morning.
For whatever reason, tonight, this cheered me up a bit. Very random, because I've seen Secondhand Lions several times and this speech has never meant much to me, but it hit me tonight, so here it is:
"Sometimes the things that may or may not be true are the things that a man needs to believe in the most: that people are basically good. That honor, courage, and virtue mean everything. That power and money, money and power, mean nothing. That good always triumphs over evil. And I want you to remember this -- that love, true love, never dies."
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