Well, friends, the awesome joy I felt this morning has given way to intense grief.
I did everything that I could possibly do, but the loss of this friendship has officially been finalized... and as much as I know God is in this and it has to happen for me to become who He wants me to be, I am in pain right now. (The beauty and gladness will undoubtedly come later - but today, it's the mourning and the ashes.)
I want to give myself time to process this with God, to really turn to Him rather than distracting myself by writing. And I want to be very careful with my words, as I believe this is a critical turning point in my life. All that to say, I'm going to take a blogging break for the next month or so!
"It's not brutal in the sense of you chew the other person out and tell them what a worthless piece of garbage they are. It's brutal in a way where you act like they don't exist, which is perhaps one of the worst things you can do to someone: to pretend that they don't exist... or that they might as well have never existed to you."
I'll leave you with this quote, which really speaks to me right now.
God truly is good, all the time, and I am so thankful that He will never give up on me or let me go!! See you a bit later this year - prayers appreciated.
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