WWW

We say things like, “God knows I desire to… get married and have kids, or to buy this house, or to work for this company… so since I’m His child and I love Him, He’ll bring those things to me.” [I’m not saying that won’t happen; but I don’t believe that’s what God intended in that verse.] “We see God as a means to an end, rather than the end itself… the assistant to our life, versus God AS our life.” –John Eldredge 
So true, and so sad. So I started thinking about it...

What are the true, deepest desires of my heart??

• To be loved and desired for who I am, for my heart; not for anything shallow.
• To listen closely and truly connect with the love, pain, and purpose of someone's heart.
• To be seen and known and heard… someone who delights in every detail of my life.
• PASSION… pure, exploding passion; a fire that can’t be put out!!
• Pleasure, joy, laughter, and happiness!
• Companionship, someone to laugh with, to walk with me through life!
• Someone who sees my full potential even when I’m far from living it out.
• Harmony and peace that stays strong even through hard times.
• To be encouraged, for someone to build me up and push me toward my dreams.
• Someone who never gives up on me and never allows me to settle for less than my best!
• To be so deeply in love with someone that I forget all about myself and my own needs and concentrate fully on pleasing that person!
• Security… knowing the other person is loyal and will never leave, that my needs will be noticed and provided for, and that my heart can truly rest and be at peace.
• To be fought for, pursued, desired!
• To be completely forgiven for all I’ve done wrong, to let go of all guilt and shame, to be given a clean slate.
• FREEDOM -- from guilt, from strongholds, from worry, etc.
• A reason to hope for restoration and healing!!
• Someone who takes it personally when I’m being hurt or attacked, and vows to be my vindicator… someone who is passionate about justice everywhere!
• To overflow with love to a point where I can’t keep quiet about it!
• Someone to make me feel whole and "complete me." =)
• Purpose… to feel valued and needed, to serve a role no one else can fill
• To worship something with my whole heart, with every fiber of my being!
• Guidance from someone wiser… not to be dominated, but to have direction from someone I trust!
• Perfection… nothing less.
• Adventure and excitement, someone with a hint of mystery...
• Everlasting love -- no sad ending, no fear of goodbye, no walking away, no disaster and heartbreak. Just deep, secure, eternal, passionate love!

How completely absurd for me to think I could ever find all this in a man. (Or a best friend.)  Even when people come close, it is never enough, and it rarely lasts. Only God. ONLY GOD.  When I make HIM the first priority, the highest delight and desire of my heart, He Himself will fulfill every desire I just mentioned and more! That’s what that verse means. Why are we so quick to look for anything but God to meet our desires? “Seek first the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added to you.”

The desires that seem impossible are there for a reason. We don't have to give up hope on finding this... all these things are available, not through God, but IN GOD. Refuse to settle for anything less than DEPTH, PASSION, EXCITEMENT, and LOVE IN ITS TRUEST FORM!!

(Excerpt from 2008 post.)