Over a year ago, I bought this huge canvas at Michael's... way too big to fit in my car at that time (Lexi), which I didn't consider until I walked outside. I was able to put the top down and stick it in the back, and I was really glad that my house was nearby! :) I had a starter kit of oil paint with 10 colors - I know nothing about oil paint and didn't bother to research it. I immediately brushed some onto the canvas, then tried to cover it up with another color and realized that was impossible if both were oils. But I loved the way the colors mix but still hold their own shade, so I used a different finger for each color, then got a paper towel and rubbed it back and forth over the whole canvas... really easy, and actually looked pretty good for what it was. A nice muted rainbow effect.
I liked that for a couple weeks, then it felt way too plain and simple and muted, like it needed something brighter and better. So I did a rope/chain/braid, whatever you wanna call it, in the center. (I don't have a pic of that by itself, but you get the gist here.)
I never really liked that either, though, so I finally got the acrylic black out one day and painted out the entire thing... so now I could start from scratch! This time, I put texture all over the board first - it's fun to work with, and I figured it'd at least make it more interesting. Instead, it kept the oils from blending very well. So this one is textured and A LOT brighter...
...and I'm still not sure I really like it. It just doesn't feel like me yet.
But hopefully I'll get it there eventually. I just have to be more patient with it and keep trying.
A couple days ago, I read the sentence, "Just be patient with yourself, because God is very patient with you." And I've been thinking about that - how I'm so hard on myself sometimes... and I can project that and assume that God feels the same way, that He's watching the clock and wondering why it's taking me so long to figure certain things out and get it right in life. But that's not how He feels at all. God is love, and Love is patient and kind. So I was happy for that little reminder!! God is working on and perfecting me little by little, even though He knows I will never be perfect here on earth... but He already sees me as His treasured creation -- beautiful, brilliant, unique, priceless, something He is never giving up on! =) Now I just need to learn to see myself the same way.
I just love her! Even when she's doing something that I know is stupid or cheesy, I find her really endearing. =)
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