Would If I Could

I had to look something up in my "Encyclopedia of Me" journal this morning, and I ended up laughing pretty hard at my 2016 self on this page...

 

I filled out the prompts for A through C in 2016, but D through Z are still blank, so I may try to start this up again...

• Anyway, that first line might sound like I was in a really sad or dark place, but I know I wasn't.  I just know that our experience in heaven will be so much better in 1,000 ways than what we're experiencing here.  But God has a purpose for us to live out on earth first, soooo here we are!
• I like that I wasn't sure about wanting to become a millionaire.  I still kinda feel that.  I'd like to be debt free and have the money to adopt and get my Master's degree without going into any debt or financial stress, but I don't really wanna be mega-wealthy or deal with all that comes along with that.
• Still yes on adopting a girl, although I technically could start that process today, but don't feel total peace about it, so I dunno.  I'm a complicated one.
• I've lost just under 30 pounds since then, and my desired goal weight has gone up by 20 (a healthy BMI and a strong size 10-12 body will be just lovely), so the goal would now be losing 65-70 pounds.
• Yes to absorbing the content of books so easily.  Audiobooks are a similar level of magic for me -- super thankful for the Libby, Hoopla, and Audible apps!!
• These next three are where I cracked myself up.  I was clearly going through the Harry Potter series at the time.  But yes to being able to temporarily release bad memories without losing them altogether, become invisible at my choosing, and talk to people I love who have died.
• I threw in a couple deeply Christian things after thinking about the resurrection stone (which I misspelled) and the afterlife. lol  The desires are real - it's just funny that they didn't top the list.
• When I think about what we'll look like in heaven, I think I'll be young (30-ish) and healthy and have beautiful hair (long, thick, curly, color changing at will).  So I can totally see how my thought process went from heaven to always having gorgeous hair here, but it reads strangely. lol  And what I meant by that is having gorgeous hair without having to put in any effort whatsoever - flawless curls and styling, zero time with a scary curling iron. lolol
  
• Yes.  All the cheese, carbs, and chocolate.  None of the negative effects.
  
• I'm not at the same place now on wanting them to die, but I do want them to be punished and for their eyes to be opened to the lasting damage they've done.  I'm guessing we were in the middle of a court case on that topic around that time, too.
• I laughed at the order on that last one.  A goal that feels more realistic is to write a book I am genuinely proud of that helps and encourages at least one person.

That's all I've got for now.  The roads are icy and it's crazy cold out, so they actually closed the courthouse today.  I woke up to workout at 6:45, and after reading that text from Judge, I promptly went back to sleep till noon!!  YAAAAY rest!  Hope you're enjoying the day and staying safe in this crazy weather!!  

Side note:  Today is Rachael's birthday-eve, and one week until my birthday! #getexcited