Random Thoughts

Getting up early enough for Sunday School - check!

Panera drive-thru lunch - check!

2.5 hour Sunday nap - check! =)

Now time to write a blog with a few random things floating through my mind lately... this week's This Is Us episode was about Beth and her backstory, and I so related with the pressure teenage Beth put on herself, the way she would internalize certain comments and struggle with false guilt, and with trying to figure out the right path for her life and wondering if she should've fought harder for certain things.  It was the first episode this season that has made me cry - but still nothing has hit me as hard as the season 1 episode with Dr. K's story - not one many people talk about, but it really got me.  ...Also, kudos to the casting team and whoever added the computer generated inner-eye freckle on teenage Beth - impressive attention to detail!!

Next on the list = horror movies.  I know most people do not understand or relate to my feelings on this topic, but they're still strong and certainly still valid for me.  It is decidedly a deal-breaker for me if a guy loves horror movies - right up there with spiritual incompatibility and hot tempers.  Protective strength is my favorite quality in a man - feeling safe and protected matters deeply to me, and I get an immediate creepy, stay-on-guard vibe with men who enjoy horror films.  Like, don't sit so close to me while you talk calmly about cannibalism and strangling and other evil subjects in your movie collection.  I do not understand the draw in any way - it doesn't even stem from any sort of healthy, God-given desire - it's the enemy's playground from start to finish. Over and over, God tells us not to be afraid, not to give in to fear, to pray for Him to deliver us from evil, reminding us that He has given us a sound mind and that we have the mind of Christ... He clearly never intended for people to desire or delight in the emotion of fear.  I've talked to multiple women who've seen one or two horror movies and cannot get those images and that sensation of fear out of their minds and spirits.  I've never seen one, and I avoid the previews if I can help it.  (*The first time I saw a movie by myself was when a group of high school friends decided to go to a horror movie and I refused to join them, so this has been a firm thing for a while in my mind. Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants for the win! lol  Movies that seek to generate fear = something I will never invite or allow into my life or my mind or my home or my children's lives.) Maybe most men don't watch horror movies because they enjoy feeling fear - but whether it's that or it's an idiotic macho thing trying to prove that they don't scare easily... or perhaps they enjoy the horrific, gory, paranormal, evil-overcoming-good storylines... OR, most disturbingly, they might get a power-trippy pleasure kick out of watching others be frightened, tortured, and brutalized, which seems to be the substance of most modern horror films... and I gotta say, whatever their reasoning, it's a NO for me.  Not now, not ever.  Hard pass!

Mmkay, next subject:  Must get back on track with calories!!  This ecard is so me, only it's the whole dinner meal where my good intentions typically go haywire. lol

I'm doing well with every other resolution - getting connected in a new church, working out 5-6 days a week, staying up to date on Bible reading, an hour of prayer every week, and the one-sentence-a-day journal.  I tracked my calories really well through the month of January, then fell off hard in February! #treatyoself  But now that the Super Bowl and Vegas and ALL THE BIRTHDAYS are over, I really need to reign it back in, and it's proving rather challenging.  I want to eat all the junk food, and I feel more ravenous than usual - it's amazing how quickly you can undo your hard work if you're not careful.  I get hungrier when I'm working out like this, so I'm definitely gonna have to incorporate more fruits and vegetables and less sugar in order to make my 1600-calories-a-day target filling enough!  #goals #mustgoshopping #backontrack

On that note, here's a diet-related video someone shared on FB that made me laugh!  (If it starts with an ad, fast forward to a minute into it!)


That's all I've got for today.  Off to watch When Calls the Heart and soak up the cheesy joy of Hope Valley! lol  Happy Sunday!!!