Bourne!!

So Rach and I watched The Bourne Identity this weekend -- it seems to be a snowed-in tradition for me! :)  Don't even get me started on how much Jason Bourne is better than James Bond.  He's not a manwhore, first off, and he doesn't have the annoying, constantly-pursed girly lips of Daniel Craig. lol  Ugh, not a fan of Matty Damon's political opinions, but his sexy half-smile is killer! :-) 

Anyway, I do have a point.  We started talking about my favorite scene from Bourne Ultimatum.  This reporter has been seeking out Jason Bourne for a story, but he has no idea what he's gotten himself into.  Jason knows people are after both of them, and he doesn't want to see this guy die... so he gives him an untraceable cell phone and calls him.  They're in the middle of a crowded train station with noise and people everywhere.  This random reporter has no idea that he's being hunted and that people are trying to kill him.  Then his new phone rings, and Jason Bourne starts directing him step-by-step through the train station.  He has to bend down to tie his shoe to get out of the camera angle, then walk behind someone, turn to avoid certain people, and take very specific routes.  He takes the wrong path out of fear, but Jason is able to get him back on track.  He is really freaked out but doesn't realize how much danger he is actually in... and he certainly has no clue that the man he's talking to is brilliant and trustworthy and has faced this enemy many times before.  So he uses his own judgement and runs out when Jason is telling him to stay put... and he is immediately shot and killed.  (The murder is not my favorite part, of course.  I just really love those movies, and have always thought it'd be awesome to be that guy, escaping the hidden dangers in an intense situation because a trained professional was secretly directing me through it all... thinking I wouldn't be a moron like that guy, but would listen closely and do every little thing I was told to do.)

And then it hit me that in the deeper reality, I AM that guy - we all are.  The moment I started seeking God, I drew the attention of a very real enemy.  He has been after me ever since, trying to harm and destroy everything he possibly can.  There is a noisy world filled with distractions all around me, but it's crucially important that I tune in to the voice of God in my heart.  That I follow His step-by-step directions even when I don't understand or think I know a better way, because He is looking from a higher vantage point and knows exactly what I need to do to make it out alive.  The scene is intense, my heart is in more danger than I realize, and I serve a God who never sleeps, who is completely brilliant and trustworthy.  And He is directing me through life... if only I will trust Him, pay close attention, and follow passionately.