Changes

Eugene Field Christmas Party today, and it went extremely well!  The kids were so excited for their presents, of course, but also just to see us!    My mom came and was ultra-helpful, and several LG members showed up to help out as well. We had two completely separate parties, which worked out perfectly.

Other than some LG guys complaining about not having enough food, I believe everyone was quite happy! It was a lot of work getting there, but seeing these kids who have so little having a great time and letting them know that they are loved was very worth it in the end! =)

Tonight was also Malori's graduation from law school, followed by Hideaway Pizza with her family!  It was a lot of fun, and I'm genuinely so happy for her that she has graduated and is done with school forever!  And is now on her way to an awesome job and has found an apartment she really loves.  ...but for so many reasons, I am going to miss her being here.  A lot.

I'm a bit exhausted right now, and feeling a vast array of strong emotions.  It's been a prayer-filled week for a few reasons.  I need the peace and comfort only God can provide.  And I need to stop looking for it elsewhere.  So many things are changing now, and I could certainly go into graphic detail on why, but the general message I keep feeling is isolation, that I am alone.  That feels true.

It's an attack.  No agreements... I know.

I'm so deeply thankful for John and Stasi and their books, because recognizing this as spiritual warfare is incredibly helpful.  To trust in God and "enter the rest of God" spiritually - that is my desire.  Another thing that might be incredibly helpful right now is actual physical rest... and so, I'm off to sleeeep.  G'night!