Tuesday, October 29, 2019

Lately...

Catch-up time on a dreary-weather Tuesday that's making me feel sleepy!

Yesterday, I got to meet Jeffrey Edward, Kelly Marie, and Ellie Faye for lunch at Taziki's on Cherry Street!  My chicken rollups were tasty, and it was nice getting to see Miss Ellie and catch up with the Moss fam!! ❤

JEM picked the day, but when I realized that morning that it was their 3rd anniversary, I got online and ordered these 8x8 designer prints at Walgreens.  Huzzah for one-hour photo pickup!  ...I love their family pic with Ellie and Penny, and that was one of my fav wedding-day shots of the two of them. =)

(*This whole update post is in reverse order.)  
On Saturday, the Wilsons had me and Evan and Jessica over for dinner and a game night, except we never got around to playing Catch Phrase, but I'm always a big fan of chatting and catching up on life! ❤

The Myers brought the fancy salad.  The Wilsons had leftovers of chicken tortilla soup, chicken and wild rice soup, and chili!  Chet asked me to bring ice cream, then Teresa also brought ice cream, so we had lots of options! lol

Tate's shirt says "Current Family Favorite." lol  Michael and Baylee are pregnant and she's due in April, so that's exciting news for Uncle Chet and Aunt Karli (and Grandma Teresa)!  I'm hoping for Tate to have a girl cousin - Chet's thinking it'll be a boy.  We shall see! =)

I just love Teresa! =)  She was talking about how great it is being a Grandma, saying she keeps thinking she can't love Tate any more than she already does, then she sees him again and loves him more every time! lol  She also said she thinks God saves being a grandparent for the latter part of your life because it can't get any better than that!  It all made me laugh and think of Mom!

The Wilsons have a friend who does watercolor paintings, and they had these prints made of their three houses - I love it!

On Friday, I made my first spaghetti squash (and maybe last because cutting that thing was a lot of work and while it's tasty once you fix it up a bit, it is definitely not a substitute for real pasta in my mind. lol)

This meme just made me laugh on a day I was feeling annoyed with people's idiocy.  TV also works, and there are no bugs or snakes indoors (hopefully)! ;-)  But I'm working on being gentle and kind and slow to anger and annoy, as I mentioned in my Movie Monday post. =)

Here's the mini Miss telling us a story and then reciting her phonograms with all the hand motions.  She's so smart and thoughtful and sensitive and playful and fun! ❤

Dad and I at OSU's Homecoming game earlier that day (Saturday, the 19th)!  We had lunch at Granny's Kitchen then drove through the amazing Homecoming floats then stopped by Chris' University Spirit and got me a new OSU hoodie before the game!  Even though Baylor won (yay for JEM and Jill), the weather was fantastic and the whole game atmosphere was super fun... we stayed through most of the 4th quarter until there was a mass exodus when it became clear Baylor was going to win.  Anyway, I've been to two games this year, which is rare for me -- fun times! =)

Miss K and I doing a YouTube Jack Hartmann exercise video she thinks is funny and fun! lol

Kristin's twins (Wesson and Nash) looking ever so adorable in the Dumb and Dumber Halloween costumes (which were for the kids of another of Dad's secretaries, so they're a little big on them)! ❤

Dad on Boss's Day this year! =)

My new power-reclining couch and chair -- yay!!

Meme that made me laugh out loud! =)

I've probably written about this before, but Elsa is an INFJ, and I can totally see that in her guarded perfectionism, her feeling responsible and misunderstood and very protective, and her shining when she finally stops hiding and lets go of all the anxiety and fear of other people's opinions that's been holding her back!

On that note, here's another meme I saved recently...
This is true, and I'm so thankful for that!  This gap may not completely go away until we reach heaven, but we can find happiness and peace with God and others and learn to embrace the good things about ourselves in the meantime!

Happy Tuesday, friends and fam.  Make it a great week! ❤

Monday, October 28, 2019

We Believe

I teared up listening to this song this past weekend... it was good for my soul to focus in on these lyrics.  Between endless political debates and petty religious nonsense that has nothing to do with the heart of Christ, it's easy for me to feel disheartened and overwhelmed by all the division within the church.  But for those who genuinely love and follow Christ, here is a reminder of the Consuming Fire that empowers and unites us...

In this time of desperation
When all we know is doubt and fear
There is only one Foundation
We believe, we believe

In this broken generation
When all is dark, You help us see
There is only one Salvation
We believe, we believe

We believe in God the Father
We believe in Jesus Christ
We believe in the Holy Spirit
And He's given us new life
We believe in the crucifixion
We believe that He conquered death
We believe in the resurrection
And He's comin' back, He's comin' back again
We believe!

So let our faith be more than anthems
Greater than the songs we sing
And in our weakness and temptations
We believe, we believe

Let the lost be found and the dead be raised
In the here and now, let love invade
Let the church live loud, our God, we'll say
We believe, we believe

And the gates of hell will not prevail
For the power of God, has torn the veil
Now we know Your love will never fail
We believe, we believe


Song of the Week = We Believe by the Newsboys

MM ~ Ghost Town

*This may sound like I'm choosing a scary movie for Halloween week, but anyone who knows me knows better.  I have never seen a scary movie, and I never will.  This Ghost Town is most definitely a comedy!

I noticed it was on Prime, so I watched it again yesterday... SO funny!  I can't help thinking of my former BFF every time I watch this movie.  We saw it back in 2008 when it was in theaters, and I don't think we've ever laughed harder than that, so that's a fun memory! =)  There are things about the bittersweet ending that make me think about her, too, but I won't dwell on that here...

In this movie, the hilarious Ricky Gervais plays a dentist who is not a people person.  He is cynical and easily irritated by other people's stupidity.  He hates making small talk, and he often tunes people out and stays in his own little world.  (So we have some things in common. lol)

During a routine medical procedure, he dies and is brought back to life... then when he wakes up, he is able to see and talk to ghosts, all of whom are normal-looking people stuck on earth because they have "unfinished business."  Realizing he can see them, the ghosts all seek his help to communicate with their loved ones who can no longer see or hear them.  

He reluctantly and awkwardly forms a friendship with Gwen (Tea Leoni), the widow of Frank (played by Greg Kinnear).  Through the course of the movie, you learn that he (Ricky) went through a painful breakup that caused him to close off, and he rarely bothers talking about it because he believes his story to be boring and ordinary.  Gwen tells him:  "Your story, it's not boring and ordinary... we just get the one life, you know? Just one. You can't live someone else's or think it's more important just because it's more dramatic. What happens matters. Maybe only to us, but it matters."

I like that.  It matters to God, too, so don't belittle your own heart or dismiss your story!

"Pain throws your heart to the ground;
Love turns the whole thing around.
No, it won't all go the way it should,
But I know the heart of life is good."
~The Heart of Life, John Mayer
(The movie also has a pretty good soundtrack! ❤)

Eventually, he (Ricky's character) has an epiphany and realizes that it's not the ghosts but the people who are living who have unfinished business and desperately need closure.  So he softens a bit and begins to listen and communicate and help the people who are still here to understand how their loved ones who died felt about them, to forgive themselves and release any false guilt, to let go of bitterness and anger, to accept the death and find healing and move forward. 

It's a short montage where all of that happens, but it's the most heartwarming and meaningful part of the movie!  He realizes that one of his dental patients whom he regularly tuned out as he found her obnoxiously talkative (always telling stories about her son and his dad) -- he finally understands that she's a grieving widow raising a young son who misses his dad terribly.  And that perhaps she's so talkative because the person who once listened to all her stories is gone now.

It's a great reminder to be gentle and kind with people, even those who tend to annoy you.  Watching that scene made me think about this post, which is so perfectly spot on (click title for link):  Everyone Around You is Grieving. Go Easy.  


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Tuesday, October 22, 2019

Go Big or Go Home

Brace up for a longer post, gang! lol  

...At a recent Christian conference honoring John MacArthur's work in ministry, they played a childish game where he was asked to give a brief response (basically saying the first thing that popped into his mind) upon hearing certain words or phrases.  The first words they presented to him were "Beth Moore," and after some condescending audience laughter and John taking a minute to mull it over, he said, "Go home!"  Most of the crowd laughed and applauded as the group of men on stage went on to tear her down and claim that it is unjustifiable for any woman to ever preach God's Word.  *You can read more about this event and listen to the audio HERE if you're interested.

It should go without saying, but what happened there was NOT okay.  It was not loving, kind, gentle, good, self-controlled, or in any way representing the fruit of the Spirit or the heart of Christ toward women!  It was incredibly arrogant and the wrong way to express those beliefs, even if they were 100% correct (which I don't believe they were).  Beth's response was classy and kind, and she continues to be a faithful teacher and Christlike leader whose life story, humble heart, and passionate love for Jesus has changed SO MANY LIVES for God's Kingdom!  I am deeply thankful for her ministry... along with Priscilla Shirer, Christine Caine, Lysa TerKeurst, Stasi Eldredge, and so many other Godly women who have shaped and strengthened me in my own walk with God.  I hope the aftermath of all this will be Christian women feeling more empowered to speak up and be bold in life and in sharing the gospel rather than feeling small and unworthy and unseen!  We are daughters of a kind and loving King, not an inferior punchline, and I hope the majority of our brothers in Christ will choose to show love and respect rather than emulating the smarmy condescension shown at that conference.

I've thought about this a lot yesterday and today, and I feel some righteous anger about how it was handled and how it might affect vulnerable women who misunderstand God's heart toward them.  God is never okay with this type of misogynistic behavior where men in positions of power choose to belittle, degrade, and bully women they consider inferior and inessential to God's work in the world.  Rather than listening well or communicating with love and grace, these men were dismissive and condescending.  And it registers as especially problematic to me that Beth Moore was rarely a target for personal attack before she began boldly advocating for sexual abuse victims and speaking up against the gross abuse of power by numerous male church leaders...
"It’s a sin to cover up abuse and to want to silence those who are speaking up against it. It’s a sin to be complicit in such things and it’s a sin to snicker at cheap shots. It’s a sin to quench the work of the Holy Spirit in and through the lives of women... It’s not just about Beth Moore. We all know that. That moment was about all of us and our experience at the hand of the whole sinking ship of evangelical boys’ clubbery.  Every single one of us who has been told by men to go home. To stay silent. To shut up. To stop stirring up trouble. To take a seat. That we are shrill or angry or bitter or disruptive.  Keep showing up.  Speak up.  Rise up.  Stand up.  Don’t make yourself smaller and quieter and lesser in a misguided attempt to avoid criticism and mockery from small-souled men like this."  ~Sarah Bessey

Although my core theological views do not line up with Sarah Bessey, what she said above was true and powerful.  In my own life, I have often played it small based on fear of what people with louder personalities and opinions might say or think... and I feel challenged now and determined to press in and seek God and start writing what He puts on my heart.  My fear of God has to outweigh my fear of man -- it's as simple and as complicated as that!

I read recently in Acts 5 where Gamaliel urges the Pharisees to let the disciples go free, saying, "If their purpose or endeavor is of human origin, it will fail.  But if it is from God, you will not be able to stop them."  And how true is that?  If we are seeking God and moving in line with His will, then no person on earth or demon in hell can stop His plans from succeeding.  So let's avoid pridefully pushing our own agendas, but as the redeemed daughters of God, let's commit ourselves to GO BIG and be ALL IN about following Him and going where He leads us!


As I shared on Facebook, I personally do not believe Beth Moore is going against Scriptural direction.  She is not serving as the lead pastor of any church, nor is she marketing her events toward a male audience.  She is actually quite careful not to paint herself as having authority over men. Her conferences, books, and Bible studies are clearly geared toward women, but sometimes men choose to attend, listen, or read.  (And many of them have learned valuable things from her teaching.) I believe the very same Holy Spirit that lives and works in Christian men lives and works in Christian women, and that His power is not stifled because of our gender differences. The same powerful God created and gifted each of us, and the great commission applies to ALL believers.  And the division is unhealthy - we're all on the same team where everyone can learn from each other and grow together!

Someone argued that the church structure mirrors the Biblical home, and that women should not stubbornly seek out power and authority over men.  I support the second half of that statement, but we need to remember that CHRIST (not Christian men in general) is the head of the church, and believers (men and women alike) are the bride of Christ who are called to submit to His leadership and authority.  My goal is not to be insubordinate or unfaithful.  But that line is defined very differently among those who use Paul's advice in 1 Timothy 2 to prevent women from teaching... and it quickly becomes ridiculous and petty:

Am I allowed to share the gospel one on one? Is that not considered teaching? Are women permitted to be traveling missionaries? To pray with sick and hurting people? To write books? To teach children of both genders (or should they avoid teaching Scripture even then)? To study and teach God’s Word? To post Scripture and write about how God is speaking to us? To write a Bible study?  To lead a small group where both men and women are present? To speak to women from a platform? To speak from a stage even when Christian men are present in the audience? Or is our place always and only in the home and our role "to be seen and not heard" in church circles where men are present? And as a single woman, if the main purpose for which God created all women is purely the at-home work of being a wife and a mother, then is my life largely irrelevant to His kingdom until I gain a husband and/or children? Or could my heart and my words have value that benefits others right now today? I’m guessing the argument would be that I should only teach Christian women, but then was Jesus mistaken or disoriented when He told the women at the tomb to go and tell His male disciples that He had risen? Was that not teaching them new and vitally important information!? Someone argued that those women were simply "passing on a message," but could the same thing not be argued about anyone teaching and explaining the truths God gave to us through Scripture?  Is it sinful for men to read my posts here or on Facebook where I regularly share Scripture and what I’m learning from it?  And what about what Paul said here: “For as many of you as were baptized into Christ have put on Christ. There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is no male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.”  ~Galatians 3:27-28 
I'm inclined to think most people would agree that this whole word association game was a very poor choice and should never have been played.  But I might be wrong as this is the second time MacArthur has done this.  He may have believed he was defending Scripture and being helpful rather than standing against women, but his lack of humility and kindness is why most of the women I know found it hurtful, demeaning, and ungodly.  In trying to defend his interpretation of the Word of God, he was far out of line with the loving heart of God, so it’s the whole "clanging cymbals" effect Paul mentions in 1 Corinthians 13:1.  

This is a complicated and contentious subject among believers, and it’s obviously much bigger than John MacArther and Beth Moore.  I think it’s easy for women to react with stubborn pride here too, wanting to show the men who are trying to "put us in our place" just how loud and aggressive we can be, and that is certainly not God’s will either.  By moving forward in our own strength and power, we will only make fools of ourselves.  Both genders have to be submitted to Him and living lives that reflect the fruit of the Spirit, which is much easier said than done... but that’s the goal that will lead us to real peace and unity... and the only way we will draw more people to join us in the love of Christ!

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So for myself, for my precious niece, for my future daughter, and for all my sisters in Christ...

I am praying for spiritual wisdom and boldness, that God would give us complete understanding of His heart toward us and what He wants to do in and through our lives!  That He would flood our hearts with light to help us to see and understand the rich and glorious future He has planned for us.  I pray that we would connect with our Savior like never before, that we would press in and grow in the knowledge of God so that we can stand firm in His will, mature and fully assured.  I pray that our words, our thoughts, our motives, and the way we live our lives would reflect and honor Him.  That we would seek His face and become the valiant women He had in mind when He created us!

I pray for fierce devotion and strength of spirit... that God would find our hearts bold and passionate, secure in His unfailing love, humbly submitted, and faithful to Him.  That our Savior would comfort and encourage us, making our hearts steadfast in every good thing we do and say.  That God would make us strong, set our feet on the firm foundation of Christ, and guard us from the attacks of our common enemy!  I pray that we would understand what matters most here, throwing off everything that hinders and the specific sins that easily entangle us, and run with perseverance the unique race God has marked out for us.  And that as we run our race, we would encourage each other and fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, so that we would not grow weary or lose heart through the difficult parts of our journey! 

I pray that the Holy Spirit would strengthen and sustain us, that He would prompt us to pray about everything and trust God's heart rather than being filled with worry and anxiety over all the things outside our control.  That God would give us the patience and endurance we need to wait on His timing and surrender to His ways so that our lives would be fruitful in every good work.  I pray for discernment in relationships, for divine connections and unity of spirit with people who will support and sharpen our faith, and for true peace and greater union within the body of Christ.  That we would continue to live in Christ's love, rooted and built up in Him, strengthened in our faith, and overflowing with praise and thankfulness!  I pray that we would learn to trust God more deeply as our faithful Provider and Protector, believing He will care for us and meet our every need through His own endless riches.  And I pray that God would keep us humble and empower us to lead lives worthy of His calling, giving us the deep desire and the inner power to do what pleases Him!! ❤

Friday, October 18, 2019

Flashback Friday

Twelve years ago today (October 2007) was the first LifeGroup bonfire I ever attended!

Angie, Natalie, and I sitting on the hay truck getting ready to go make some s'mores!  One of my favorite classic Fall season pics!  Or maybe I just like that there's Hersheys in it. lol =)

 Kyle in that group worked at Camp Loughridge, so that's where we had the bonfire.  I don't think Mark had joined the group yet, so this was me and Natalie and the first two of many, many, many LG couples! lol  You might notice that I'm in boots while everyone else is in tennis shoes - some things never change! lol jk I've gotten smarter about that sometimes when there's lots of walking or lots of dirt and mud, but I do still feel like I look approximately 1000x better and more put together when I'm wearing shoes with heels of any sort.  Probably all in my mind, though. lol

Chad and Angie, my first Tulsa LifeGroup leaders!

"Skim" and "Changie" (Scott and Kim, Chad and Angie) - both couples are now married with several kids! =)  (And Kyle is in the background on the tractor!)

Shutterfly emails me with random memories sometimes, and it's fun looking back at some of the pictures and people I don't see much of these days.  It can also be a mildly painful reminder of how quickly life changes and friendships shift, and how me being the single girl surrounded by couples is one thing that has yet to change.  Then I have to remind myself that everything here on earth is partial and incomplete, and life is complicated and full of highs and lows whether you are married or single!  I guess all any of us can do is play the hand we're dealt to the best of our ability... and trust God's heart toward us through every season!  

On that note, here's a quote Stasi posted this morning from her book:
“Believing God is good in the midst of waiting is incredibly hard... Faith believes ahead of time what can only be seen by looking back. There will come a day when we will look back and understand. But in the waiting, may God strengthen our hearts to hold on to His.” ~Stasi Eldredge ❤

Thursday, October 17, 2019

Thankful Thursday (100!)

“All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.” 
~2 Corinthians 4:15

*For anyone who didn't catch it in the title, this = my 100th Thankful Thursday post!!  I got the idea from Karen Bullard's blog, and I've been documenting things I'm grateful for since August of 2010. =)  I'll go with 15 points instead of 7 today just for old times' sake!

Today, I am thankful for...

1.  The way my "internal narrator" (the way I frame my own life story and look at my personality) has grown and changed over time!  More grace, less perfectionism... more joy, less anxiety... more ability to see the worst times of my life through the lens of God's goodness! ❤  And the way writing has helped with that growth and shifted my viewpoint.

2. Dad and his siblings having close relationships that have helped shape my view of family!  Pic = Dad, Gus, Havno, Nancy, Charlene, Georgia.

3. For the Weight Watchers meetings where I learn new recipes and feel encouraged, and for being down 18 pounds so far... off to a good start!  I'm collecting the whole rainbow on these happy keychain tags this time! =)

4. That my new gray couch and chair are being delivered this afternoon... apparently eight years to the day after I got the black couch and recliner!!  #craziness #onthisday

5. For awesome, tasty soups that make eating vegetables so much easier for me!  (And that are low-point enough to allow me to work in some chocolate!)  #winning ;-)

6.  For the surprising way this watch and seeing the happy "activity ring" fireworks go off when I reach each goal has motivated me to get up and step it up!  If I keep this going, the watch was worth it for that alone!

7. For the Whitaker fam, and especially for my friendship with Kristin! =)

8. That I'll be joining T-man and his 6th grade class on their trip to Washington D.C. in April 2020.  I'm excited to see all the historic landmarks again as an adult, as well as getting to visit the Bible Museum for the first time!!  And obviously to spend time with my nephew and take ALL the pictures and make a far better scrapbook than we knew how to make back in 1996 and '98. lol

9. That Triston is excited for me to join him on the trip, and he told Rachael that I'm a cool aunt, and that I just "get him!"  That made me happy! =)  (He's in the middle here with his friends Micah and Nate.  It'll be fun to get to know them and his other friends a little more on this trip too.)  

10. For my happy Christmas decor, and for the "oy" making me laugh when my ceiling fan blew the J down! ;-)

11. The "Thoughts Challenge" pushing me to be more intentional in memorizing Scripture and meditating on what is good and right and true!

12.  For this promise that has always stuck with me, and for the mystery and wonder and awe that surround God and compel us to seek Him more deeply and "press on to know Him!"

13. For Rach and Sarah both texting me funny New Girl clips recently!  It's the show I miss most now that I don't have Netflix. #winniethebish #furguson

14. That this 1950s trend is FINALLY BACK!  I saw so many girls at the OSU game wearing scrunchie scarves, and yes, I have ordered some for myself.  Cute on long hair, cute on short hair, cute with a bun or ponytail or half-up, just happy bohemian chic! #yesplease  A definite upgrade on the '90s scrunchie trend, although those are apparently back now, too. lol

15. Getting to be Aunt Lindsey to these four awesome kids!  I see them, I believe in them, and one day, they're gonna change the world! ❤

That's all I've got for today.  Hope you have a lovely gratitude-filled Thursday! 

Monday, October 14, 2019

You Belong With Me

“When I don't belong, oh, You say I am Yours.”
~Lauren Daigle
Most of my life, I have been subconsciously trying to figure out where I fit in. 

As one of very few introverted women in my family and extended family, I sometimes felt a bit out of place growing up, like I was too quiet or too serious.  Being surrounded by fun, outgoing women who were full of strong opinions and forceful confidence sometimes made me feel unheard or uninteresting.  Not unloved, but unsure if it was okay to be different, to be my deep-thinking, emotionally sensitive self.

In my elementary school days, I had a kidney disease and needed to sip water consistently throughout the day, so I stood out as the only kid carrying a water bottle with me everywhere I went.  Braces and acne were fairly commonplace, but having my facial muscles paralyzed by Bells Palsy in elementary and then again for an extended period in high school made me feel extra self-conscious and awkward.

In high school, I began spending more time with my younger sister and her friends, who I grew to really love.  I was the obvious outsider in that group, but it was my favorite place to be, maybe because being a little older helped me feel more confident and relaxed around them.  In the usual tradition, sports were a big deal at our school.  I was never very competitive, so I served as the manager for the girls’ volleyball and basketball teams.  I loved getting to go to all their games and tournaments, but I knew I was the only student traveling with them who was not truly a part of the team.

I was a good student who genuinely enjoyed learning, and I got along well with everyone.  I never felt like an outcast in my class, but also never quite fit in with the popular cliques.  The same was true for our church youth group – I loved the worship and the Biblical lessons, but I could have always done without the childish games and teenage drama.  All things considered, I have lots of good memories from my school and church youth group days, but I never found a group of friends where I felt like I belonged and could totally be myself.

My life plan for as long as I can remember was to get married and have kids, to become a wife and mother after school was over.  I foolishly put very little thought into choosing a career path because it did not factor into my long-term “plan.”  I attended a Christian university for one semester.  I had a dorm room on campus but ended up driving back home regularly after deciding early in that semester that I wanted to try court reporting school.  I felt a little culture shock coming from a high school class of 48 people, and I put very little effort into forming new friendships at OBU.  My night school court reporting class was mostly filled with older women with families, so I continued to hang out with my sister and her school friends… which is how I ended up falling for my best guy friend, who was also younger than me.

He was the first person who made me think: “This is where I belong.”  I felt relaxed with him... I felt understood and valued and comfortable sharing my heart.  I did not realize how much my soul had been craving that sense of belonging, but it became apparent two years later when our relationship crumbled and my sense of worth and security crumbled right along with it.

After the letter, I formed a close friendship with one of the girls in my singles Bible study.  One of the guys in our group started joining us regularly to hang out and watch The Office every week.  I was oblivious at first, assuming the three of us were a fun group, but I quickly became the middle-man helping them connect and clarify their feelings for each other.  Soon enough, they began dating and eventually got married, and I felt like the odd man out once again.

Next came my six-year friendship with the second person where I felt a strong sense of belonging.  Having a best friend that you really connect with helps you feel understood, loved, and significant.  Right up until she deliberately stepped away from our friendship, and I felt misunderstood, unloved, and devalued. 
...While I was thinking over these things one day, I came across this verse:  “But you belong to God, my dear children.  You have already won a victory over those people, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world.” (-1 John 4:4)

I love it when God gives me something so clear and direct.  I underlined “you belong to God”about five times, and I knew deep inside that it was true.  That He has been there for me in every season of my life.  And that my forever home is in heaven with Him, so it’s okay that I don’t always fit in here.  I know I am loved and understood by God, and I do not have to care or fret about what people think.  I don't have to clamor and strive to fit the current definition of “normal.”  It took me a while to get here, but the more I have learned to embrace Him as my place of belonging, the more I feel like I can connect and enjoy life everywhere I go. 

Everyone who knows Jesus as their Lord and Savior belongs to Him, and we belong with Him.  He will never let us go.  He is our security, our dependable place of refuge and safety where we can relax and be our most real and honest selves.  I'm learning as I grow that no one feels like they fit in perfectly.  God is creative and He loves variety, so He purposely made each of us unique and different from everyone around us.  And that becomes fantastic and beautiful when we finally let go of our comparisons and insecurities.  We learn to see the beauty in our differences and to fully embrace who God has designed us to be!

Your background, personality, gender, family history, friends, age, race, culture, religion, denomination, relationship status, political values, hobbies, and quirks – it all matters and makes you who you are.  Every person you meet is one of a kind, reflecting a unique part of God's heart and character, and uniquely loved by God.  
I want to add that it is worth pushing through some initial awkwardness to get to know people in different stages of life.  It's not always easy to hang out with those who have differing viewpoints and beliefs, but it will challenge and sharpen you.  Sometimes younger people dismiss opportunities to connect with older generations, minimizing their worth… and vice versa.  But there is so much value in groups that combine multiple generations and people in different life stages.  For years, I attended a home Bible study where I was the only single woman in a group full of grandmothers and mothers, and I loved it.  We had a great time getting to know each other, and those women loved me well, prayed for me regularly, and had great words of wisdom and encouragement to share.  It is awesome how quickly we can connect over a shared love of Jesus and the Word of God, how the Holy Spirit can unite our hearts in a way nothing else could.  We are all unique but equally significant, and it’s so good and healthy and truly fun when we come together to learn from and support each other in our individual walks with God. 

It brings great freedom to know you belong with God and to find your security and stability there.  We were made for heaven, so it's natural to feel a bit out of place here.  Believing that you are deeply loved and that you have a place of belonging in Christ allows you to enjoy your life without anxiety and to love others well.  It frees you to try new things without being crippled by perfectionism or fear of judgment.  And it empowers you to branch out in forming new friendships and relationships without being hindered by destructive comparisons or putting too much pressure on other people to complete you.

So if you find yourself struggling to figure out where you fit in, know that God is holding out His hand and saying, “You belong with Me.” 
“Yet I still belong to You. You are holding my right hand.
You will keep on guiding me with Your counsel,
leading me to a glorious destiny.”
~Psalm 73:23-24
*I  wrote that a while back as a first-draft chapter of my still-unfinished essay book.  lol  That one may be something I never publish but that I needed to write just to process through certain things.  It was encouraging for me to read that again today, as I've been struggling with that same familiar feeling of not quite fitting in at Evergreen.  It's rare for me to feel out of place with other Christians at this point in life, so this is new and unexpected, and I am not loving it.  I've become a little too guarded and too self-conscious about what others think. 

I'm determined to press through my own doubts and cynicism and to press into God!  The more I let God's love define and empower me, the less my singleness or my past experiences or anything else that feels like a dividing factor in relationships matters!  We are all unique, and God made us that way on purpose to sharpen each other and add value to each other's lives!  So I need to focus on how I can love, support, encourage, and build others up rather than worrying about how they may perceive me or whether I "belong" in their group.  I belong to Christ today and forever, and I belong with those who love and seek Him... and we all belong wherever He leads us!

And that's a good note to end on in this three-post Monday. ❤  Have a lovely week ahead!