Happy Wednesday, friends!
I've had a very busy and productive week thus far, so I'm giving myself the last 30 minutes of this day to write. =)
So I had a turrrrible dream last weekend (I guess that's called a nightmare, but I feel dramatic using that word). I walked into an abandoned amusement park late at night - (that mirrors a court case we had where someone broke into a park that had been closed down for years, and I remember that feeling like such an eery thought to me) - anyway, I hit a spot in my dream where the moonlight hit it just right to reveal a massive spiderweb right in front of my face. I jolted and stopped HARD, noticing multiple large brown spiders slowly crawling around on it. On both sides of me, there were wide slats (like the Station bridge), and more spiderwebs and spiders crawling between them. So I very slowly turned around planning to run back out the way I had come in... but there were spiderwebs there too, because dreams just don't have to make any sense. So I was the only person around inside a small-ish rectangular area boxed in by the webs and spiders. Then I stood there basically hyperventilating and feeling trapped to the point that my own fear woke me up. lolol (And then I laughed at myself for that absurdity!)
After that, my counseling grad school mind kicked into gear and wondered what's happening in my subconscious to trigger that. Could be nothing - not all dreams have deeper meaning. But the palpable panic-fear and feeling isolated and trapped in place while actually having the full ability and power to move through something that really scares me rings true in more than one area. So I am pondering that and praying for more clarity and courage on the things God wants me to move through or the boxes I need to step out of right now...
In lighter news, but another thing where God was speaking to me, a couple weeks back, I stopped at Cookie Mama after my hair appointment with Janelle. I had cupcakes and other treats that morning at Harvey and Heidi's party... and I knew the better choice would be skipping the cookies, but it was right across the street, and they would make my drive home so much more enjoyable. lol
So I stop there and get the iced sugar cookie with sprinkles and a s'mores cookie (both excellent - highly recommend this bakery). And there's a lady sitting with her granddaughter on the swing behind me, and she gets my attention and asks if I know what Romans 12:2 says. ((I was wearing my CCU t-shirt, and that reference is on the back of it.)) I had to think for a second, and then I quoted from memory: "Do not be conformed to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind." She was a Christian too, and we talked about that and the CCU program for a couple minutes. =)
We don't just get to resist the enemy and have him leave us alone. First, we submit ourselves to God. (James 4:7) In the seemingly small decisions that make up most of my day-to-day life, I want to get better at tuning into God's voice and being obedient... trusting that little by little, He will keep renewing my mind in ways that transform my life and future!
*The stuff we struggle with varies greatly from person to person, and this is not intended to bring condemnation or call any specific food good or bad across the board... that just was not the best choice for me in that moment, and I want to do a better job of honoring God's leading in the small things.
Anyway, the work day is over, and it's time to go home - huzzah! ❤
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