For reasons that should be obvious, my top choice on where I'd like to be will always be Heaven, but I don't want to get there before God wants me there.
I thought about this question last night, pondering several things I believe would make me happy (no surprises there - being healthy and strong and beautiful, being in a Godly marriage, adopting and raising multiple children, getting my Master's degree, going into counseling or teaching, publishing a book, starting a ministry, etc.). Then I felt stressed by the pressure of ALL that, and I remembered how little clue I really have as to what is best for me. My Creator knows what I was created to do; I am often clueless on that. I need to seek God for direction and peace and continued joy, and to find my significance in Him rather than feeling this persistent inner need to accomplish more and prove myself. Maybe I'm supposed to move or remain single or start serving in a way that I haven't considered yet. God knows those things, and I don't have to know them yet...
So my final answer... which I know is vague and possibly annoying, but also the truest answer I can give... is that 10 years from now, I want to be in the center of God's will for my life. Walking with God is a process, and I want my heart to become better soil. I want to listen and seek God and obey Him and walk in step with Him over the next decade in a way that will put me where He wants me. That dream is more simple in some ways and more difficult in others. I have become too complacent and passive here, and I know it is not God's will for me to fade out or be isolated or ignore His conviction. This path will require perseverance and self-discipline and trust, and it is worth chasing. "Let us press on to know Him!"
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